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About ciaobellamiastory

What do you do with that magical moment when everything makes sense - when all the random choices, experiences and encounters come together, and you find that rare instant of clairty? Then what do you do when it all falls apart? About 12 years ago I decided to take an Italian 101 course. That seemingly random choice has forever altered the path of my life. My strange connection with the language, culture and people of Italy started with love and joy and culminated with unexpected loss, grief and despair. While previously I was content to follow this unpredictable path, today I seek to understand the reasons and lessons behind my journey. My journey towards understanding begins here.

Ciao (Goodbye)

I woke up the next morning with my head in a fog. I had no desire to get out of bed. No desire to pack. No desire to face Mario one more time. All I wanted to do was pull … Continue reading

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L’Ultima Notte (The Last Night)

When I finally entered the Fiori’s house that night, I was physically and emotionally exhausted. Everything was so surreal, and I couldn’t help but wish that I would wake up to find that it had all just been one terrible … Continue reading

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Domenica Sera (Sunday Night)

Sunday dragged. My train wasn’t until the afternoon, so I had a whole day to think about what would happen when I returned to Lucca.  And a very long train ride.  I no longer knew if I was anxious for … Continue reading

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Roma (Rome)

(2010) When I woke up the next morning, I didn’t immediately remember where I was.  As I looked around at the unfamiliar furniture, the events of the previous evening rushed back into my memory. Immediately I could feel the tears … Continue reading

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Rifugio (Haven)

(2010) I littered the train tracks between Lucca and Rome with an endless stream of tears. I’m sure my fellow passengers thought that I was somewhat crazy, but I was too wrapped up in my sorrow to care.  All I … Continue reading

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E Allora? (And Now?)

(2010) Once again, I found myself sobbing over Skype to my mom.  Everything was a mass of confusion and pain.  I didn’t know what was happening between Mario and myself, but I could feel that we were heading down a … Continue reading

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Il Giorno Dopo (The Day After)

(2010) When I finally pushed send, I felt a huge release of emotion.  There was nothing else I could do but wait. It was another sleepless night.  I kept replaying over and over in my mind what had happened.  Each … Continue reading

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